THIS IS ME, THIS IS ME AND THIS IS ME…. I CAN’T HELP IT…..

I KNOW MYSELF THE BEST, AND THIS IS PLAIN REALITY AND NOT MY MISCONCEPTION… THIS IS THE WAY I AM, AND THIS IS THE WAY I WANT TO BE… ALL THE SELFISHNESS AROUND DID NOT CHANGE ME IN THE PAST, WHAT THE HECK WILL IT DO NOW??? BUT ALL I WANT IS A LITTLE PEACE IN MY LIFE AND CONTENTMENT FROM WITHIN.

I am tired of my insecurities, I am tired to see my bestest friends putting someone else on their priority list when it was me who clearly stood by them all this time….. I am tired of being irritated with people whom I love the most….

Sometimes mind gets bombarded with questions to which you have no answers at all. How many times should I introspect myself? How many times should I look at my past and compare the present Me to what I was???

I don’t know what all I am writing today but I just want to write. I have always heard that expectations hurt, they indeed do, but you expect only from those whom you love… Then what’s the point in getting hurt? I hate not being the centre of someone else’s World. I have done this trillion times and doing it again now… Cutting myself from everyone just because I want to know what lies inside me. My thoughts, my actions, what really do I want? Reading people’s blogs today is bringing tears to my eyes. Earlier this feeling was not so swelled up. I feel like going out in open in the midnight and cry my lungs out. For what, even I don’t know. My life is not so bad either, neither the troubles are so much. Atleast I am far blessed than the person who is sitting on the streets and contemplating whether he can afford tonight’s meal. Why am I wasting this so precious life All Mighty has given me???

I am sick of making people irritated out of me. I hate being thinking about my so close people all the time when I get nothing in return. I get tired man…. So much to think about but still landing up nowhere.

Friends ask me not to think so much, not to take everything at heart, not to be blunt, not to care about everything …. But this is the way I am, I can’t help it. I might be the biggest Bitch to someone but my heart also does cry when I see my loved ones going far away…

If I am good, I am bad too, I know it all…. BUT ALL I WANT IS MY PLACE AND NOT MY SPACE…. It makes me think you all don’t care.

Damm, I don’t know what I have written and I don’t even care. For sometime I don’t want to think about anything, ANYTHING AT ALL…. Just want to spend some time with people less taken care off, with nature, with everything beautiful that God has created, all the small and simple stuff. Because outside the World is crazy and the people are nothing more than selfish. But the worst part is that somewhere I still care for my people, no matter how they are….

This is gonna be my worst blog ever…. :(