THE INCOMPLETE LOVE

Continuation of ‘UNDER A SPELL’ & ‘THE TRUST – WITHIN ME, IN YOU’

There are times when relations don’t work out, there are times when partners don’t understand each other, and there are times when this so sacred thing as love is just wasted away………

Cressida walks into her room, checks her cell, take out some assignments & starts working on them… 5 minutes later again checks her cell, but nothing…. Distracted goes back to her work again……. But the uncertainty, the doubts, the fear are all messed up in her head….

It’s been months we have been together. Time passes so quickly J A lot happened all this while. Arguments, misunderstandings, confessions, love letters, secret smiles, speechless talks, the looks….. EVERYTHING….. It’s beautiful… But it’s scary too….. Cause no matter what, I can’t read him as clearly I should. And there is always this uncertainty of breaking apart…….

Anyways, no matter how miserable I would sort it out……

Checks her cell again, no calls, no sms…….. The anxiety growing…. Where is he? He does not feel like being in touch or what? Why does he ignore me at times? God what should I do????

After 6 hours, cell ringing

Cressida : Hey

Friend : Hey, Wassuppp

Cressida : Wassup my foot, where have you been?

Friend : Was with friends, didn’t realize the time. Came home & then slept

Cressida : But atleast you can take out a minute to just inform? I was worried

Friend : Cressida………………………

Cressida –( Silent )

Friend – What happened?

Cressida – You know it’s not working this way. You hardly care, you hardly inform, you don’t care where I am, you just do things when you want to…… Why is it always about YOU???

Friend : I know it’s not working out. I don’t know but I am normally very concerned about where my girl is, I keep a tab on her, but with you, I don’t know why it’s not coming out?

Cressida : What’s my fault in all of this? I mean where did I go wrong? Why do you have to make me go through this? Firstly no commitment from your side, and then this?

Friend : I know it’s my fault. When have I blamed you Cressida? But I don’t know what’s wrong? Why is’nt it coming out?

Cressida : (Silently Sobbing) Well maybe then we should just end this… I mean if feelings only are not there, then what’s the use….. I guess this was the last thing I had to hear, you not being concerned… I am glad you said it today………..

Keeps the call off

I sit in a room, wondering……

LOVE….. F*** man, it screws you up right?

Are you crazy Cressida? It was LOVE… You loved him, you still do, don’t curse it

What’s the dam use of it when you here, crying, just because now you know he does not care, HE DOES NOT CARE

So what if he does not care? But once upon a time, you did share yourself with him, he was everything to you, you wanted him Cressida, you had him and you were happy. Why crying now?

Cry, Cry & Cry…. I told you this would happen. Bloody keep your heart at stake and suffer. God dammid it aches right, it’s aching right? Didn’t I tell you? Didn’t I warn you?

Cressida, how would you have had those beautiful memories if not with him? Was’nt it worth it?

Huh, it was’nt… It never was… Don’t you see it? Did’nt you hear it? He was just fooling around. He must have got someone else now. Get over it Cressida, throw him out.

Don’t blame him Cressida. He can’t be so bad. You know he’s not. He cared and he loved you. Maybe not the way you used to but something was there…. But yes, GET OVER IT. Save yourself from this pain… get over it Cressida, get over it…. Forget him

And Cressida sleeps. Her deepest sleep ever. Tears though still streaming from her eyes….

Cressdia : ( It’s not going to be easy. Seeing him everyday in front of me, recalling every bit of my time with him, every single second and still not able to talk to him, wanting him to come back but still ignoring him, trying to show him that you hate him no matter my eyes still brimming with tears at the sight of him….. It’s not going to be easy…. But then Love has never been easy……. )

The fears finally came true, the smile finally vanished, the dreams finally shattered……. And they both go on their separate paths….. Finally In their different directions…….. But seriously, was it worth it???????

THE TRUST – WITHIN ME, IN U

Continuation of 'UNDER A SPELL'

She sits out in the sky, counting the starts above… Smiling to herself…… The days are going really fine…. And even the nights…………J I love him, I know I really love him…… It’s not that I have not had these feelings before but like always, it’s so natural & so pure……. When I see him, I fall in love with him all over again…..

I am so stupid…. I should not be so lost in him… Because I know it hurts….. If things don’t work out, it hurts badly….. What if this does not work out? I don’t want to get hurt again and especially when I am just so much into it………………..

God Cressida, u thinking so much…. Just leave it….. You love him, he loves U and that’s all that matters……….

Her phone rings…………..“FRIEND CALLIN”

A sparkle in the eye is so obvious…… J

Cressida – Hey

Friend – Hey, wassupp

Cressida – Nothing, just sitting

Friend – And what else J

Cressida – Thinking……. I guess

Friend – And thinking what

Cressida – Ummmm…. I don’t know….. Just random thoughts…….

Friend – Hmmm ok

Cressida – (Silence)……

Friend – Speak something Cressida, your silence scares me J

Cressida – (Smiling)……. You sure you like me?

Friend – I do, and I am quite sure about it………………

Cressida – hmmmm ok

Friend – What about you?

Cressida – I love you with all my heart…… (A tear might trickle down my cheek right away idiot, I love u so much)

Friend – (Silent)

Cressida – You know it’s not going to be easy

Friend – I know….. But we will manage….. For the sake of what we feel, we definitely would……..

Cressida – But it’s going to be really difficult road ahead

Friend – We will both sort it out Cressida……. When I am with U, I am totally yours……. I am sure we will figure it out

Cressida – Hope so J……… (I want it to work God, plssssss)

Friend - J

{Love is blind, oh yes it is……. But people are not always so blind… Cressida could foresee the rugged road ahead, the darkness that might engulf them…. But she trusted him with all her heart……. She knew that if he’s there, it’s going to be all fine…….. Eventually they would work out, no matter how miserable……… He was a lot to her….. In his own ways, in what she felt for him, he was EVERYTHING for her…….BUT…..

Little do they know that fate has written a different story for both of them……… The love would not be love after some time…. The anguish would replace the feelings in the times to come…. And there would not be that belongingness ahead……. Maybe Cressida’s fears would come true and unfold them….. Maybe the friend would be no longer there…….. Maybe everything would just end……….}

Cressida goes in deep sleep, with his thoughts in her mind, with that smile on her face……. Which might just end someday……..

FADE AWAY.....................................

THE JOURNEY WAY UP!!!

I stand on a lofty peak

Gazing my eyes at the World beneath me

Its been a long long journey reachin this high

And as I walked my way up, I saw the own me isolated from the realm

Its so true, that the person at the top is always alone,

And now I note the gravity that hauls me down…

I was never born to possess

I in my own modus and methods possessed

But what success am I talking about?

I’v hurt many on my way up,

Made some happy, made some sad

Kicked someone down, while pulled someone up…

I had lost the real me long time back

To regain the very same, I tried pleasing everyone….

Everyone…. But 1………

People find me full of love, friends find me the bestest…

Bt I cant charm just everyone

And I myself don't know whom I want to cheer for the moment…

I made a choice when I reached here

Either me being down, or either me up

And now I am at the apex….

With the same real me being inside me

But then why people refuse that its not me?

Have I gone amaurotic? That's what they say

I know this is not the state

I see everything apparently

I saw this minute coming

I saw what I was losing

But what I shudder at, is my paramour going away from me

Should I step down for you, or should I pull you up?

This choice I got to make…

I don't know where it would lead me to

I cant hurt anyone… And I cant please everyone

But yes, my determination speaks again

No matter what.. I see my world with me…

And I would continue doing the same

That one mistake in my life that I did years back

Is something that I am not going to repeat again

I am going to bring everything back…. To me again………..

UNDER A SPELL……………..

Here Cressida was sitting, with her thoughts……What do you gain outta just by thinking…. Get a life Cressida…… And so she moves, she finds him, a friend …. He has been around always…..And he’s funny too J …And so they sit together..…. Stupid talks and stupid things…U r crazy, stupid, jerk….…. And same goes for you ……..

And so they go home smiling……

Cressida goes to her room and sleeps….. With the mind still being filled with the conversation she had with her friend……..

Time passes…….. She hears a knock on the door……..

Cressida Who’s dis????

Friend Its me Cressida, your friend

Cressida Oh hi, how are you?

Friend I am fine, Just wanted to meet you

Cressida Meet me??? Suddenly??? Why???

Friend Coz I have been smiling all through this while…

Cressida Same with me…… What have you been thinking about???

Friend U…..

Cressida Me????

Friend Yes U……..

Cressida Ok, we need to discuss this….. What’s happening???

Friend I don’t know, that’s why asking you I guess... But something is happening rite??

Her alarm rings….........

Cressida Shit…. Have I been dreaming???? About him???? Anyways……….

And so she goes back to her usual stuff again……. He’s there….

Cressida Should I talk??? Offcourse I should, your dream was a crap…….

So hey, hi again…… And he says ‘u know I have been thinking about you’……………………..

Cressida Watttt……… Y……….. (Is he having the same dream as mine???) And this is reality…

Cressida Well, thinking What????

Friend Don’t know???

Cressida Wattttttt?????

Friend How would I know?

Cressida (Puzzled)

Friend (Puzzled)

Cressida Ok fine, I have been thinking about you too

Friend Wat? Really?

Cressida Yes J

Friend Is there something you wanna tell?

Cressida Nothing as of now…

Friend Are we both feeling the same?

Cressida Maybe

Friend So what should we do???

Cressida Give it time

Friend How much time??? You know I miss u

Cressida And so do i

Friend But yea, lets be Practical

Cressida Yes…. Lets be Practical (It hurts to be practical tho)

Cressida looks at him and he looks at her, they read what they should not, they understand that no one else might….

“Are we wrong? Probably not…. But why this then??? And when we know it can’t happen……..

We need time, we gotta wait……. For each other, to see how much of this is true, to see if its worth it……”

Friend I’ll miss u

Cressida I’ll miss u too

And so they go on their separate paths……… Though still moving in the same direction J

FADE AWAY……………………………

IN THE TWILIGHT ZONE

So I am back finally!!!!!!!!! Have been so busy off lately, so many things happening in life & so random at the same time…. So this blog is gonna be totally vague with so many thoughts being poured at the same time. I love expressing myself here coz I guess this is the only place in the World where I can just put my thoughts without any interruption….. And so the right time comes……………..

EXPECTATIONS HURT BIG TYM

This is something my friends have been trying to explain me from the very beginning of my college life…. But I never believed in the above thought. If you don’t hold any expectations from your close ones only, whom will u rely on in life???? But phew….. Guess its time to change this thinking of mine……..

Have not been expecting A LOT I would say but yea, d minimum…… N even that’s not fulfilling now…. I keep on thinking, keep on getting hurt, keep on waiting, but who cares……. So finally I have taken this stand up to COMPLETELY stop expecting from people…. And surprisingly, now when I have implemented it, I realize it was’nt tough at all……. Maybe my feelings are so dead from inside that now I don’t care anymore…. As always, I miss being myself L But can’t help it, the World around you changes you……….. L

MY 2 ANGELS

I was coming home distraught, the same expectations problem in my mind, so many questions, mental exertion and what not…. Plus I had this stupid early extra class on Sunday and the professor did’nt turn up……. Can u believe my luck??????? Anyways I Was dragging myself up the stairs of my home when I finally heard some noises coming from my living room…….. TRING TRING…… Mom opens up with a smile….. ‘Your friends came up to meet you sweetie’……. I see 2 kids sitting in the dining room…… I know this gal, bit from where??? I step in the living room and what I see………… My Joseph Uncle & Flory Aunty (Lets go back to history….. Joseph Uncle & Flory Aunty, as the name portrays are a Christian couple from Kerala. They used to live with us, on the floor my parents decided to rent…. They have been with me since I was an year old…. I have spent my childhood with them…… Going upstairs, coming down, Flory aunty taking me away to play with her, Uncle getting me gifts occasionally……And as I grew up, i got used to them…… Probably I was 10 year old when they decided to shift from our house….. I was obviously upset but soon grew over it….. I used to talk to them always on phone, but gradually I lost the touch with them no matter mumma & papa were in regular contact with them…I have’nt seen them for about 4-5 years now… )

I had just stepped into my living room and seeing them there was …………………. Can’t be put in words……. All I remember was I threw my bag & hugged Joseph Uncle and my aunty……. God………… My happiness knew no bounds……. I was thrilled…….. A moment back I was upset and now I cant stop myself from jumping……. They were overjoyed at their ends…. Especially coming to meet me on Sunday & then realizing that I had my class….. So disappointed they were….. Cursing their luck……. But when they saw me, even they could’nt believe their luck……. I could see tears in my uncle’s eyes……… So strange na, I don’t remember hugging my mom with so much warmth off lately and here I was exultant with both of them around me…… Meeting them after so long…. Still sharing that love, affection & respect……… I can’t remember if I was so happy off lately compared to how I was that time…. I sat with them for an hour, saying was not, telling them all what’s been happening and they just looking at me with so much warmth…… I could see myself blabbering like a 2 year old in front of them and they telling me how I used to be when I was little…… ‘Aunty, is this water from Kerala??? Why don’t you get me the same gift as Nidhi’s? I don’t wanna go downstairs, can I hide here??? Please, mom would make me study, I wanna be here…….’ There was over flow of emotions at that time and so I completely forgot that their kids had accompanied them too…… But mom was taking care of them…… I just wanted to be around my 2 guardian angels…..

God I know you exist. There have been moments when I really need you badly, like that day I needed you soooooo much & you just came in front of me J

A STEP GONE WRONG WITH…….. THE STRANGER

Dude I am feeling bored, spiritless…. Have nothing much to do…. My college takes my time and when I am free, I am idle…. Well u must be thing that why don’t I study??? But studies are something to be done only when exams come, and I am anyways good at them…….. J What should I do, what should I do??? Have not been into a chatting room from some while now. What’s harm in passing time that ways????

UUmmm….. The rooms are interesting…. 40’s room can be interesting….. Click and I log on…….. Damm these buzzers again…. Fake people, fake profiles, webcams, pictures, what not shit…. That’s why I don’t prefer to be here…. But I am all vella for now…. So you see….. Random Random people…. No one interests me………. Oh some ‘ak’ buzzed me…..

Me: Ur asl???

AK: Alex/24/m……. U?

Well I wrote my age, my location…… You would feel ‘what an idiot?’ But I am clever I know. People cannot be trusted on net and I very very well know it. Lets see how this goes on anyways. What harm would he do if in anycase I tell my real age n name(Only 1^st name, not Sirname, I told you I am clever)…………..

He seems interesting to me…. Its been 2 days…….. He flirts well, and boasts about him quite a while. He is half Indian, half American… Would be coming to India for business in few days…… What more should I say??? The equation is quite comfortable between us, I like talking to him, he likes it too…. We talk more as friends. But yeah, a major problem is there, he wants to see my pic or want my number now……. Bloody hell, I am not gonna do anything like that…. I am not stupid….. I know its risky….. And I am a girl afterall. He knows it, he understands it, but still……. Anyways I like talking to him, that’s the only thing that matters for now……

After a week

Well I am still chatting with Alex. Its getting dangerous a bit… I have shown him how I look. I can’t believe it myself though, but I did that. He fails to identify me in my pics…. And says I look totally different in different pics of mine…… Funny but clever he is…… He has shown me his pic too, just 1 of it. Quite handsome he is IF THAT’S HIS PIC. I know people fool around a lot here, so I am taking all the probabilities…… But Alex understands me, he knows how a girl is, he knows the values that she carries…….. Oops, I forgot to tell you his family background. He is half Indian, half American, Father is from Goa, and Mom from USA. So that’s the reason is can understand a girl’s psychology well……… Anyways, its all cool and fine for now………. Hopefully it remains so……

After 10 days

You won’t believe I have given Alex my number. He came to India and we chatted normally on chat. Was telling me about his cruises and all. But then suddenly said that there is no point talking if we can’t be in touch regularly. Online its tough as our timings don’t match….. He is very convincing as I said before and I really have started trusting him a lot…. I know I know I should be cautious, I took all that in view, and then gave it…. He called me…… He has a sweet voice, he talks intelligent, has that American accent but blended with Indian too….. His hindi is supercute…… We tease each other a lot, play pranks, listen to what opinions we both hold from inside, I told him about my family, my boy friend. I love talking to him and being with him when he is low…. I can say I found a true friend on net J But we argue too, we both love doing that…

After 15 days

Alex and me share something more than friendship I guess. I like him. Is that wrong? It is I know, how much do I know him only? You can’t fall in love with a guy whom you met on net, and then now we just talk on phone…. The situations are very complicated though. I have a boy friend in London, whom I can’t confess all this too, how should I? And its too early for that anyways… I don’t know if what ever he says can be trusted or not? He sent me a mail the other day with the name of some’ Abhishek Kuru….’ What ever……. I countered him on the same that how come A does not stand for Alex but Abhishek??? He has his own reasons to give that it got hacked and everything and all…. Something is fishy out there I know… But I like him, I can’t help it. He says the same too and I can feel that in him. But I have to b cautious.

After 5 days

Its been 2 months I have been talking to Alex now. Yesterday he called. As usual e were having fun teasing and pulling each other’s leg. Damm I like him… We both understand our limitations but have left it on time. Lets see what is in store for us… He was generally teasing me, kind off went over board this time…. How could I take something against a girl…. While smiling and laughing, even I said a lot of stuff to him….. Probably said a lot…… He got hurt….. But as a nice gentleman, wished me n slept…….. 5 minutes passes, he did not call…… I thought to call instead…. He was feeling low, I was rude….. But then he tells me that I don’t have to take him seriously, afterall how much do I know him only??? I asked, how much do I know you??? He said ‘ You know I am married since 6 years, I have a kid’. He must have been joking, I said the same, but his seriousness astonished me completely…. He was dead serious about it…. He confessed he was not 24 but 30 and he liked talking to me, never wanted to spoil it, that’s why never told me……. But how could he???? I trusted him blindly……. We shared so much……. He knows we did…. He still likes me, he still loves me, but yeah, not so seriously as I do….. He has been thinking that I am a clever girl, how could I give into my feelings for a stranger??? But I did, I was cautious all this while but this…..??????? I don’t know what to do, whom to blame??? I am hurt….. He says nothing has changed for him, but for me…. EVERYTHING DID…….. I am very very angry with myself, disappointed that how could I let him in so easily?? I was careful all this while…. But feelings did get hurt, they do eventually…….. I am out of his life now, have deleted his no. Don’t know what should I think about him. He might have misused my number, but didn’t do that though, but still I feel cheated……. I still don’t know who he was…. The Alex whom I knew or what this guy is now???

HE JUST TOOK A PART OF ME AWAY FROM ME………

Moral : Feelings can’t be controlled, they know no limitations and no barriers……. The mind tries to stop you. Stop at the right time. People don’t end up hurting anyone is such cases but themselves………

PS: This was a real life incident. Hope my readers learn something out of it. J

THE CHANGE

It’s so good to be back here again and write something. Everyday I m finding reasons to pen down something here and finally I got one.....

Off lately I have been observing people a lot. A lot on that!!! The show cast of their reactions and furthermore their expressions were followed by my inference and it was funny to predict their moods.

But anyways, my craziness knows no bounds, so I leave it here.... Maybe would write something on that in future....

Anyways, my this post revolves around the word 'CHANGE'.... Be it change in habits, perceptions, attitude, World at large and anything and everything it includes...

It all started when the idea of formation of Placement Cell was being talked about in my campus... Listening to everyone talking about it, their desires, their expectations, their grudges, distrust.... All that was going in my mind was 'You have done it before, You can do it again.... You need to bring in THE CHANGE'..... And i saw myself standing up for being part of the same..... That was my very first step....

I had never been a part of any kind of revolution or anything like that... But being a part of CMC now, i know i have huge responsibilities on my shoulders and the people out there look at us with eyes full of expectations, that maybe we would do something good for everyone.......... Behind their anger, their frustration, their broken hopes are sad eyes which are craving for a change.... Change for the better....... Change to get what all we deserve..... Change to reach out to a place where our parents want to see us..........I don't know if I am sounding insane, but I feel like hugging everyone and reassuring them that everything would just be fine and we would go where we want to go..............

I can feel it........ Because I need it desperately too.......... Everyone does................

Anyways yesterday i had this amazing lecture in my college on 'Sustainable Development'.... All thanks to Deepika and my other friends..... Mr Sodhi, the speaker was amazing..... Truly amazing..... I cannot remember a moment I took my eyes off him.... All that he spoke about was our environment and that our younger generation deserve a lot better than what we are leaving for them.......... That man standing their on the podium, addressing to about 60 students was their to bring a CHANGE........ A change for the better again.... A change which he said cannot be brought up by 1 or 2 but an entire crusade of millions have to work towards it.......... And so I decided to start with my part of work.... Only and only recycled papers for me now onwards....... And i got to get back to my habit of planting trees which I so proudly say, was initiated and well carried forward by my school........ Proud to be a SALWANIAN :)

Anyways enough, I got to make a presentation on Trait theory..... So off i go........

EACH AND EVERYDAY I TRY TO BE A BETTER PERSON THAN I WAS..... HOPE IT CONTINUES TILL THE END........... :)

100 Facts about ME

Thanks Deepika, I loved answering each and every question here :)

1. Last drink: Cold Coffee

2. Last phone call : Had a talk wid my Frnd… Unpleasant it was L

3. Last text message: To the very same frnd I referred above

4. Last song you listened to: Pehla Nasha
5. Last time you cried: Ummm…. Last Thursday I guess…. And I cried my eyes off

Have you ever?...

6. Dated someone twice: No
7.Been cheated on?: Sadly YES

8. Kissed someone & regretted it?: Never
9. Lost someone special?: Many…….. Few Friends & A Lover

10. Been depressed?: That’s very usual for me

11. Been drunk and threw up?: Never Ever

Four Favourite Colors...

12. Black

13. Red

14. Purple

15. Blue

..

Firsts....

16. Made new friends: Many……. I love making Friends
17. Fallen out of love: Not really!!

18.Laughed until you cried: Yes……. Whenever I think about my last relation, this is what exactly happens
19. Met someone who changed you: Yes…. Vivek did……… A very special person in my life… He changed me for all better….
20. Found out who your true friends were?: Yes… Though have been wrong in judging people at times
21. Found out someone was talking about you: Hell lotta times…. I am Popular J

Have You...
22. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Yes, A peck on the cheek is always there for my close friends
23. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Almost ALL
24. How many kids do you want to have: 2

25. Do you have any pets: Na

26. Do you want to change your name: Never, I love my Name…. It represents me… J

27. What did you do for your last birthday: Went on special treats J
28.What time did you wake up today: 6:15 L And ended up having no classes at all in college today…. Total wastage of time

29. What were you doing at midnight last night: Was smsing my friends

30. Name something you CANNOT wait for: LATECOMERS

31. Last time you saw your father: seconds back……. He’s home

32. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: I wish I could alter my past a bit
33. Most visited web page: orkut.com

What's Your...

34. Name: NEHAAAAAAAAA

35. Nicknames: Varies from Friend to Friend
36. Zodiac sign: A true Capricon

37. Male or female or transgender: Female

38. Elementary: Salwan Montessori School, Delhi

39. School: Salwan Public School, Delhi
40. Colleges: SHAHEED SUKHDEV COLLEGE OF BUSINESS STUDIES (CBS)…Damm I am too proud of it…. Right now IBS Noida……
41.Hair color: Black

42. Long or short: Medium J

43. Height: 5 feet 2 inches

44. Do you have a crush on someone?: Sadly NO

45. Ever been in love?: Yes………..

46. Piercings?: I love them. My ears and my nose

47. Tattoos?: I badly want 1 J

48. Righty or lefty: Righty

49. First surgery: Don’t scare me L…… I had one when I was in 6^th standard probably

50. First piercing: Ear piercing

51. First best friend: Sakshi Sudhan
52. First sport you loved: Badminton

53. First pet: I never had a pet L

54. First vacation: Ooty I guess…. I was hardly 3 years old

55. First concert: JAL…….. I so loved it…. I am craving for another concert of theirs

56. First crush: ADITYA DUTTA….. I was in 6^th standard J

Right Now...

57. Eating: Naaa

58. Drinking: Naaa

59. I'm about to: Have my dinner

60. Listening to: Random music playing on TV

61. Waiting for: Tomorrow…. Gotta kick someone’s ass

Your Future...

62. Want kids?: Offcourse…. They are so adorable…. I have already decided the names J

63. Want to get married?: Not till 24

64. Careers in mind?: I have it all intact in my mind

Which is better with the opposite sex...??

65. Lips or eyes: Eyes

66. Hugs or kisses: I am open to both…. Though kissing part is bit doubtful

67. Shorter or taller: Talll…… I love wearing heels

68. Older or Younger: Older

69. Romantic or spontaneous: Both…..
70. Nice stomach or nice arms: Stomach I guess

71. Sensitive or loud: Extremes for both…. Too Sensitive and Too Loud

72. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship anytime

73. Trouble maker or hesitant: Both J

Have you ever...??

73. Kissed a stranger: This quiz is going mad J

74. Lost glasses/contacts: Oh Yes
75. Sex on first Date: I knew its going crazy (the quiz)

76. Broken someone's heart: Yes……. Intentionally & Unintentionally both

77. Had your own heart broken: Yes……. Badly that too

78. Been arrested: No way

79. Turned someone down: Yes, few people
80. Cried when someone died: Yes…. The most recent one, for my marketing professor

81. Liked a friend that is a girl?: Yeah…. But I am straight yaa

DO YOU BELIEVE IN...

82. Yourself: Truly and strongly

83. Miracles: Yes

84. God: Very strongly

85. Love at first sight: Not too sure

86. Heaven: Yes

87. Santa Claus: Yess J……… I still wait for my Santa J
88. Kiss on the first date?: Nope

89. Angels: Yes….. I wish I could have one

90. Devils: Definitely…. My younger sis is just that

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

91. Is there one person you want to be with right now?:Yess……

92. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? Na

93. Wanted to kill someone ever?: I want to when I am very very angry

94. Among you blog mates, whom would you like to kiss?: Deepika (a peck on the cheek for her J)
95. Committed a blunder and regretted later?: Yes I did commit many but regret one strongly
96. Wanted to steal your friend's boyfriend / girlfriend?: Naaaaaa……. I have been on better side J

ASSOCIATE WITH SOMETHING YOU WEAR...

97. White: Top

98. Black: My top, my kajal, my shades, my bangles…. I love black…. Makes me feel strong

99. Red: Belts and Nailpolish…. I need Red Heels too……. They add the oomph factor J

100. Pink: My Barbie Dolls